This Is Not My North Anymore

from Arctic Fever (Full Album) by Katie Metcalfe / Crown Of Asteria

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lyrics

This Is Not My North Anymore

We have betrayed the north,
why should she forgive us
for what we have done?

My dogs know, they have known
since the first time my heart fell
from my chest, and I needed to gather
it back and try to adapt to the new ways.

You must know, an Inuit man is nothing
without his dogs.

I never expected to be gone before them.

Back, back before the ice started dying,
their fur was carried off by the wind
always before their master's
last breath.

Their wolf songs collect on the wind.
I taste their grief on my tongue,
I swallow it, I will carry it.

My family, my sacred mountains,
they cry with no noise.

The morning brought seals
too many seals.

The meat is not how I remember.
They are sick, offering themselves
in hordes, begging for death.

Their eyes are all agony.

But I do not want to die hungry,
I eat.

I chose the floe yesterday,
the floe that will take me home
to my ancestors.

I am surprised it is still there today
for the warmth is taking everything
it long took away my happiness.

My family, my dogs stand on the shore,
we watch each other
until the skyline is drenched in fog
and then

I undress

I offer my furs my skins
to the sea, to Sedna

There is rain on my body
I have never felt it before now

the ice suckles on my skin,
the rain, black needles,
this is not how it was supposed to be.